My planner is stuffed full of lists, dates, sticky notes and plans.
I like my life organized, falling into boxes that I can set wherever I want them to go. With my lists and planner, my crazy life fits well into the categories of school, work, friends and church. I am rarely unprepared for what is coming next.
Except for now….
In 23 days, I graduate, leaving the world of tests and papers to enter the adult world. I feel prepared to tackle the new challenges that being a college alumni means, but I do not know what that looks like yet.
I have no plans.
Surrounded by people who have plans, jobs, apartments or weddings.
Then there is me. I have no plans set in stone. I have ideas of where I want to go and what I want to do with this new adventure in front of me.
Uncertainly, I approach the feet of the God who orchestrates my life.
I lay my ready made plans at His feet. Tattered and worn from being pulled out and constantly reworked to fit my needs, they clatter to the ground.
My hopes. My plans. My dreams. My future.
He whispers as He gathers up my well-organized plans in his arms.
I watch as He takes my dreams and plans and puts them aside.
Trust me. I have a plan for you.
I offer an uncertain yes.
To trust that He has a plan.
To believe that He has my best interests at heart.
To acknowledge that sometimes I do not need to have everything figured out.
To realize that taking this risk and saying yes could be the best decision of my life.
I offer an uncertain yes, trusting that my well-worn plans are safe in the hands of the God who shaped my heart.
As graduation looms in the not-so-distant future, I rest in my uncertainty, acknowledging that I am not the one in the control. I relinquish my right to plan my future, rather I allow my heart to be filled with the One who has the control.
I close my sticky-note covered planner focusing my energy on listening for His voice in the chaos and uncertainty.