That is the word I chose to define my attitude about this year.
Healing. Adulting. Moving.
As I approach the newest transition in my life, it is getting harder to face things with expectation in the face of seemingly stormy and unknown skies. I have no idea what God has in store for this year. Being brave isn’t always easy, pleasant or fun, but often it’s necessary. Being brave goes hand in hand with expectation. I can expect God to do a lot this year, but not move at all-not take any brave steps towards my future. It tries my patience and challenges my soul to trust. Living with expectation challenges me to look at seemingly negative things as part of God’s plan.
A dear friend reminded me that it is time for hard and scary and holy things. Her words wrapped up all of my feelings about the next couple months. Hard. Scary. But still holy.
They will not be easy because God is asking for trust, patience, bravery, and growth as I lay my plans down, believing that He has got them.
Being brave comes not from being alone, but from having people around me saying, “You have got what it takes to be brave”.
Being brave means having hard conversations, but knowing that the communication will deepen my friendships.
Being brave shows up when I love someone through the messiness of life, knowing I can’t do anything but listen.
Being brave sprouts out of the desire to accept the love I deserve from the God who shamelessly purses my heart.
Being brave appears as I share bits of my story with people, striving to be known as a fearless Child of God.
In my striving to be brave, I succeeded graciously, and I failed miserably.
Sometimes, bravery looks like admitting that I was wrong and acknowledging that I have areas that need broken down and built anew.
Being brave means being willing to tear down the walls of fear, shame, guilt, and insecurity slowly shattering the hold they have. Only then can God build up walls of courage, grace, love, and confidence redeeming the broken aspects of my soul.
Being brave means acknowledging that there are many answers I will not have right now about my future, but trusting that God will reveal the next right step as I move forward in obedience.
Being brave starts as a choice each and every day-as I seek to more like the One who calmed the troubled waters in the middle of stormy seas.
Being brave means living with an expectation of the adventures Jesus is going to take me on as I bravely hand him all my desires and wants.